*sighs*
*dies*
Sunday, November 22, 2009
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
A peek into a random mind
*Ankie pushes me into a bus.its pretty crowded.a middleaged lady is standing with a very stern expression on her face.a guy near to where i am standing leaves his seat for me.i sit down and look triumphantly at the lady.she gives me an expression which says "you wait till you have kids and your boobs sag." i feel a sudden guilt.my mind starts a furious battle with itself.*
i should get up.i seriouslyseriouslySERIOUSLY should.*i am about to get up.i look at her again feeling a warm glow.her expression is unchanged.my glow dies*.on second thoughts,maybe i will just stay put.she looks like the kind of women who teach in schools and bully girls like me who talk too much or too loud.besides she does have saggy boobs.*i smirk gaining a suspiscious look from the gentleman beside me.i watch the birds and the bees and the dust and dirt.my mind is strangely quiet(yes I am thinking this).the conductor comes asks for the fare.changehunting begins.*
1...2...4...emm...that's two 50p...5...darn I am an entire rupee short!how do I buy badam?oh wait!the bus fare is of bigger concern!*snicker again*.now what now what.i could ask annoyed uncle for a rupee.or maybe saggy aunty.or maybe i could smile at the chaivalrous youth and ask HIM for it.no wait.I have braces.he only left the seat cuz he didnt see my braces.what what*looks around panicked*.i shouldnt have had phuchka today.but it was good*reminiscent smile*.oh right!Shreya did give me a 100 bucks that day*frantically searches bag,retrieves note*.i hate braking big notes.its so sad!*conductor gives a horrifying glance at the large denomination.sighs and counts change*.oh wow!so many little notes!so many phuchkas!yeyyy!oooh look!nose digging ugly guy!I love the way my mind works.i should post it in my blog or something!and I will have to remember all of this for that!wow!what a loser am i!i remember conversations with myself!ah well...being loser is phun!:D
i should get up.i seriouslyseriouslySERIOUSLY should.*i am about to get up.i look at her again feeling a warm glow.her expression is unchanged.my glow dies*.on second thoughts,maybe i will just stay put.she looks like the kind of women who teach in schools and bully girls like me who talk too much or too loud.besides she does have saggy boobs.*i smirk gaining a suspiscious look from the gentleman beside me.i watch the birds and the bees and the dust and dirt.my mind is strangely quiet(yes I am thinking this).the conductor comes asks for the fare.changehunting begins.*
1...2...4...emm...that's two 50p...5...darn I am an entire rupee short!how do I buy badam?oh wait!the bus fare is of bigger concern!*snicker again*.now what now what.i could ask annoyed uncle for a rupee.or maybe saggy aunty.or maybe i could smile at the chaivalrous youth and ask HIM for it.no wait.I have braces.he only left the seat cuz he didnt see my braces.what what*looks around panicked*.i shouldnt have had phuchka today.but it was good*reminiscent smile*.oh right!Shreya did give me a 100 bucks that day*frantically searches bag,retrieves note*.i hate braking big notes.its so sad!*conductor gives a horrifying glance at the large denomination.sighs and counts change*.oh wow!so many little notes!so many phuchkas!yeyyy!oooh look!nose digging ugly guy!I love the way my mind works.i should post it in my blog or something!and I will have to remember all of this for that!wow!what a loser am i!i remember conversations with myself!ah well...being loser is phun!:D
Saturday, December 27, 2008
last day at Turf View
I looked around once more(how could i stop?).I looked once more at the patch of ground where Poopsy was buried,the sapling which we had planted on the the patch five years back had grown into an odd looking bush.I looked once more at the tree under which I had kissed Karan the one last time.I looked at the low set stone benches,now covered with moss,wich,in my time used to be the hub of all activities.I looked at the basketball court,the place where my "big fight" with Deepti had happened years back and how,in the same Basketball court,we had both sat and cried at the thought of being separated.I looked at the long curved roads all around the 19 magnificent buildings of Turf View,where I had graduated from "cycling with friends" to "walking with friends".I looked at the Shopping Centre and remembered how in my time it used to be just one old gift-cum-stationery-cum-grocery-cum-fast food shop and how Pranjana and I used to save money to eat there.I looked at the phuchkawala just outside the complex whose phuchkas I had never eaten.And finally I looked at Block no. 6.Six years of my life,spent without my dad and sister,the house where I dislocated my kneecap,lost my dog,lost my first love and found myself.And I remember how a year and a half later I came back to see my beloved house taken over by my now best friend.
"one last walk?"Dhuh asked.I nodded and went along.Why did he have to shift to a hostel.It would cut off my very last link to Turf.Ofcourse,we could come here whenever we wanted to,but we couldnt come here in the evenings-and Turf was at its beautiful best in the evenings.
"you wanna cry?"
I nodded.
"you wanna hug me?"
I nodded.
"you wanna hug me and cry?"
I nodded.
So we stood there hugging each other,me crying,him comforting.
"hey Kunn,remember this was where we first met?and this place?i was sitting here upset for Prabhleen and you came in crying for Karan?and..."
yeah...i remembered everything.every liitle memory.
"anything you wanna do one last time?"
I gave it a thought.
"uh-huh,let's go have phuchka"
"one last walk?"Dhuh asked.I nodded and went along.Why did he have to shift to a hostel.It would cut off my very last link to Turf.Ofcourse,we could come here whenever we wanted to,but we couldnt come here in the evenings-and Turf was at its beautiful best in the evenings.
"you wanna cry?"
I nodded.
"you wanna hug me?"
I nodded.
"you wanna hug me and cry?"
I nodded.
So we stood there hugging each other,me crying,him comforting.
"hey Kunn,remember this was where we first met?and this place?i was sitting here upset for Prabhleen and you came in crying for Karan?and..."
yeah...i remembered everything.every liitle memory.
"anything you wanna do one last time?"
I gave it a thought.
"uh-huh,let's go have phuchka"
Friday, December 19, 2008
Dis I miss my blog?sure I did!Why didn't I write then?Duh!because I am lazy!Why do I write now?Because I realised that everyone else is just like me-they like doing Orkut and Facebook during the exams when they are NOT supposed to and lose interest after that!So here I am in my world again!Bored?yes!Lovelorn?yes!Gloomy?yes!just within the last two days I got a call from my much hated ex,spent five hours walking with the person i SO wanna be with ,listening about the person HE so wants to be with,got dragged into fights between overly possessive friends,torn between being a good sister and a good daughter and failing miserably in both.
i was expecting everyday to be fun...but life's become a living nightmare.not to forget my first ever pimple bursting to burst,my braces contracting in the cold and giving me the agony o a lifetime AND the fact that the world is ending in 2012!
so?am I happy?you bet I am!My ex still wants me,i actually have a Jaane Tu kinda best friend,my friends love me enough to fight over me,my family means enough for me to TRY being good!i guess i was born an optimist....or an idiot....or both!:D
i was expecting everyday to be fun...but life's become a living nightmare.not to forget my first ever pimple bursting to burst,my braces contracting in the cold and giving me the agony o a lifetime AND the fact that the world is ending in 2012!
so?am I happy?you bet I am!My ex still wants me,i actually have a Jaane Tu kinda best friend,my friends love me enough to fight over me,my family means enough for me to TRY being good!i guess i was born an optimist....or an idiot....or both!:D
Saturday, December 6, 2008
AAAH!
There's a reason why semesters rock.It gives an odd sense of satisfaction to be able to hand over all those criticisms to the kabari waalah knowing that you will NEVER have to look at them again.also so many new story books without an occasion!jeez!and once i am over with Philosophy and that abysmallystupidlyidioticallymoronocnonsensical MassComm ,mom and dad can't even say "chhutir pore ki pora hobe,sheta ektu pore nao"...no sirrie!i art a free birdie then!i can be on the phone all day,go for movies,go for parties...oh ya!i sure as hell cant wait!
Monday, December 1, 2008
HAPPINESS IS...
To kiss a hand that will be thine.
To wear a ring which with love does shine.
To feel a raindrop on your nose.
To open your eyes and find a a rose.
To be the cause of a baby's smile.
To have Birthday gifts heaped in a pile.
To hear the birds twittering above.
To receive an embrace filled with love.
To watch giggling children in the park.
To steal some kisses in the dark.
To have a puppy lick your face.
To be a winner in a race.
To have some hot chocolate to drink.
To having to find no meaning or link.
To share a secret with a friend.
To reach a mystery story's end.
To watch your favourite team win.
To find pleasure in a sin.
To be able to freely laugh out.
To attend a concert and sing out loud.
To be petted,loved and made silly.
To feel warm even when its chilly.
To finally fulfil that crazy wish.
To be forgiven for breaking the dish.
To help a blind man cross the street.
To find your room all tidy and neat.
To find some money in the road,
then to give away to someone hungry and cold.
To burst a bubble in the air.
To blush at a flattering stare.
To love,to heal,to help,to lend,
To always be sure your troubles will end.
:)
To wear a ring which with love does shine.
To feel a raindrop on your nose.
To open your eyes and find a a rose.
To be the cause of a baby's smile.
To have Birthday gifts heaped in a pile.
To hear the birds twittering above.
To receive an embrace filled with love.
To watch giggling children in the park.
To steal some kisses in the dark.
To have a puppy lick your face.
To be a winner in a race.
To have some hot chocolate to drink.
To having to find no meaning or link.
To share a secret with a friend.
To reach a mystery story's end.
To watch your favourite team win.
To find pleasure in a sin.
To be able to freely laugh out.
To attend a concert and sing out loud.
To be petted,loved and made silly.
To feel warm even when its chilly.
To finally fulfil that crazy wish.
To be forgiven for breaking the dish.
To help a blind man cross the street.
To find your room all tidy and neat.
To find some money in the road,
then to give away to someone hungry and cold.
To burst a bubble in the air.
To blush at a flattering stare.
To love,to heal,to help,to lend,
To always be sure your troubles will end.
:)
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